Just wanted to give you encouragement. I didn't pick up a guitar until I was already kinda older. Been plucking at it for about 20 years now. It's therapy for me.
And the Rabbit's right. When you play every day, after a time your fingers will just "know" where to go to get the sound you're looking for. The shapes, the patterns, the rote scales are all well and good, but it's the playing of it that lets the muse find you.
Oh, and I don't know what Blood Slave is, but Darla Starling just seems to fit you. I shall call you Darla from now on.